The RED LOBSTER blues

I chose to have dinner here tonight. Here in Victoria, there aren't too many options and I didn't feel like riding around all night to find something. So I settled for RL. To be quite honest, RL is alright. I mean, I have a "craving" for their TARTAR SAUCE, BISCUITS and that CHOCOLATE COOKIE thing (that is complete heaven); everything else on the menu is....ehhhhh... I ordered the ultimate feast; and $25.00 later I am asking myself why the hell did I waste money on that ish? It was..bland, to say the least and just "whatever." I'm seriously starting to get over eating out. All the food is starting to taste the same!

December 30.."the new me"

Today is a start of a new me. Yeah, I know its something everyone says around this time of year, but so what. Add me to the list if you feel necessary. I'm still struggling with this weight loss journey, so I started AGAIN today. I went to the gym and did kickboxing and eventhough it was completely BLAH, I stayed. I will also focus on lifting weights and doing all that other ish we know we need to do in order to get down to a decent size. For me, I am not sure what that size is....but I tell you what, this dayum back fat better be gone; and I'm shooting to have all this EXTRA gone by July. This will be TBC.... ...in extra news, I'll be on here blogging more often. I missed this place.

The downfall of computers.....

They are killing my eyesight! I've got to STOP staying on this thing all night and day, and viewing everything with no light!

I cherish my eyesight...I really, REALLY do.

The start (again) of a new me!

And so here I am, still on this weight loss journey and who would've known it would be this long. How depressing. So what do I do, huh? Well, I've started (over) so many times its ridiculous. Who really takes 8 years to get their weight under control? Simple--a person who obviously is not ready for change (Umph, I disagree but cannot argue--but something has to give). There is nothing attractive about feeling like a fat beach whale while walking down the street. Clothes are too tight, rolls are thick and blah...

So tomorrow, 4/20/11 I start again. I continue to ask myself what is going to be different this time; but then I slowly deviate from those thoughts and think positive. I NEED to do it this time; I'm going to put in a little more effort this time and most importantly, I WILL do it this time.

I'm not going to share any pics right now (sparing any kind of diginity I have left, unless of course you see me in public), but I will post them later. Just know I have exactly 63.5 pounds to lose. And I wanna do it by Oct--shooooooooot, maybe it can happen. Join or follow, we can change together!

2 years ago

I started this blog in NY..and now, Im in Dallas and just accidentally bumped into it! Wow, do I miss being here. HELL YEAH a lot has been through my mind, and I will do my best to update it accordingly. First off, updates.

1)Still a CRA
2) In a relationship
3) Haven't reached my goal weight wise


Alright..so there is it. I will elaborate more later. Right now, Im going to see whats been up with ya'll.

WHOA..its been a min..

Ok, so I owe (anyone out there) an update. It's now knocking on September and I haven't been on here for a while. So yeah, here is a very condensed (or my best efforts) of what has been going on lately....

As far as my goals;

1). I AM (yes, I said A.M.) a CRA. Initially I only knew of two companies that would train me for this postions; and both were in Austin which meant I would have to move...ugh. One wasn't feeling me for the CRA position and the other had a hiring freeze; and that is where patience kicked in. After 2 months, I looked into other companies hoping I could find one that would train me to be a CRA...and here I am. Not only did my new company train me, they didn't require me to move anywhere either-and I work from H.O.M.E!!! In this situation...I definitely came out on top...I couldn't be happier.

2). I am only 18 points shy of my credit score goal...yep, yep.

3). As far as weight loss..umm yeah, my October goal is out! But hey, I still have until the end of December to lose the extra baggage...lol.

So everything is on its path.

Real Talk--keep your heads up people. Close friends, family members and even strangers will try to destroy any ambition you have. Set goals and go for them. You are truly the only one that controls your destiny...

Onto other things...

I found a couple of new things I want to invest in. I wish Monday wasn't a holiday cause I need to go to the bank--look, I know you need the day off, but I need to go to the bank...lol. Fine. And then too, I am going to try a new detox product (goodness) so we will see how that goals. Overall I am very excited about life and all the new things/ideas coming to me. I'm back to my old self again...and who can I thank!? Well, you already know...

06/01/08

52 seconds ago made it official; we have hit the half-way through the year mark. Yesterday I found myself up until 4:00am watching "Waiting to Exhale" followed by "The Pursuit of Happiness." Although these are not premieres, I was attached to the t.v. and in deep thought as I watched them. Both movies explain exactly how I feel at this point in my life; and, these movies came on right after another on the same channel! Now to me, that was some freaky Jason ish...its amazing how things happen---its actually kinda scary.

Anyway, at the end of Pursuit of Happiness, I cried WITH Will when he got the position. Goodness, if I don't know how he feels---it just touched me (and this is not the first time I have seen this either). Everday he showed up to his intern focused because of his determination, regardless of what changes were occuring in his life. On the outside, his life was falling apart, but he never brought it to the workplace or told a soul. Been there and done that so many times...I guess you call it strength...**shrugs** So yeah...I knew this was a sign for me-and a well received one.

So, I made some goals that I want to accomplish by the end of the year. I will leave 08' with a bang. Here they are:

1). I will have a credit score of 750 by the end of the year.
2). I will be a CRA by the end of the year. The company I want to work for is not hiring until Aug., but anything is possible and I am not giving up.
3). I will lose 20 pds and make my goal (with a total weight lost of 70 pds) by Oct.

Don't worry about holding me to it, I will do it. So there it is. Also, some people just have to go {out of my life} right now. In due time all will be well, but now is not the time.

So thanks Direct TV for touching me last night. Thanks spirits above for giving me strength and most of all, thank you God for not allowing me to give up on me. These last couple of years have been an itch in some areas, but a 'change is gon' come' for me, and I KNOW it.