It's cold outside

How ironic, I'm in Dallas. Which could only mean I am being my usual me; sarcastic and blah. I have a long journey ahead of me...and I really would like SOMEONE to walk with me, encourage me, and be by my side during this time...but yeah, key phrase was W.O.U.L.D. L.I.K.E!

So excuse me if I seem a little {shitty}, but fuck, I am. I don't want everything, just simple things that come for free--blah, {a digression in progress}...

Alright so I will continue to walk alone...knowing one day someone will come along. Hee, hee...uh huh. For some reason I keep thinking of that saying 'if you set someone free and they come back...'--you know, hell. I think that is BULL....if someone leaves, please keep walking.

Patience Ebone...patience, patience and more patience. Yep...I've already watched the paint dry on 80 houses...maybe 100 will be the lucky number.

Sorry---had a bad week. But that is what blogs are for.
Peace.

There is ALWAYS one

Yep, one! It nevers fails that there is always one stanky, catty ass woman that you work with that communicates with her tone of voice, looks, and posture to let you know you ain't shit. It's like she tries to intimidate you and belittle you because you are black {or some shit} but the bad part is, this heifer is black too. WTF.

Now I just don't get it. Everyone else in the workplace is cool! Now please know I am not looking to get in this mass circle of friends at the job, but hell--I could have sworn we were all black. I mean, we ALL struggle the same way, we ALL get played in Corporate America and we ALL had to do {a little more} just to get the position we have. So let's cut the shit house negro!

What amazes me more is I am suppose to be impressed because they have been at the company for {X} amount of years and they have an office with a view. Umm yeah, I am not impressed at all...seriously!! Now I know what you are thinking-many would feel honored to have all this, right? Well not me. Why you might ask? Well...ummm, cause someone else is signing their check, ass! And what these {now more traditionally called} 'Uncle Toms' don't understand is because someone else is signing their check, their black ass can get fired just like I can. Now what!?!? Own the company and then I might smile when you walk by; but until then, get the fuck--for real.

Shhhh, it won't hurt.

People talk too much. I've learned that when you shut up, more things happen. I know, I know--it hurts holding it in. I hurts to not tell everyone you are about to get a big house built in 2 years and it hurts to have ideas in your head that you want to tell the world about--but truth be told, keep that shit to yourself.

Its kinda contradicting really. Some people say speak and claim whats yours, while others believe to remain silent. Well as you can probably tell, I am a silent person. I have so many ideas and things I want to do in my head...but I tell only a select few people--if any. I don't feel the need to tell everyone everything because then they are looking for you to do what you said, and if you don't, you are now a failure. I refuse to run around and make promises to people (although I have a long ass list of people who will benefit, eventually).

I don't know...maybe its just me. But in the interim, I'm practicing silence--I got things to accomplish and I will not have to speak when I get there, it will show.